megan wetselaar

megan wetselaar

August 20, 2013

It was about 8:30 on Navy Pier in Chicago. I was sitting on a bench talking with my dad. We had just spent the day using wrist bands to get tours on a whole bunch of old sailboats. The ships had been busy all day but from our bench we could tell that hardly anyone was touring them anymore. Dad and I were talking. Mom was shopping. We were just waiting for the fireworks over the lake.

Mom came back and sat by me and Dad. Wanting to give them a while alone on their anniversary, I left and walked down the pier. May as well go onto a sailboat by myself. No lines, no kids asking questions. Just me on the boat with the waves beneath me and a beautiful view of Navy Pier in front of me as the sky was getting darker by the minute, and the lights of the city behind me were getting brighter just as quickly. 

The man letting me onto the boat must have thought it odd that a girl my age would just be confidently walking onto the boat by myself. Oh well, I had the wrist band. He had to let me. 

I didn't really care much about the boat. It looked all the others, I didn't want to look around. I just went to the the far side and looked over the edge. Watched the Ferris wheel on the Pier go round and round with the most beautiful lights. It was peaceful. And let's be honest, Chicago is my favorite city in the world, I was soaking up the minutes I had to myself just to look at it.

But my peace was disturbed. I heard a voice next to me. "So, do you have any questions about our boat?" It was a crew member. I mentally rolled my eyes, not wanting to be bothered. I think I even said, "No I don't." But then thought more and decided to be polite. He didn't seem busy and wanted to talk to the one 'customer' that was stopped on their ship. May as well ask him some questions about himself. "How long have you been working on this boat?" (Three years.) "What's your favorite and least favorite part of sailing?" (I get to sail everyday. It's a double-edged sword.) 

I continued asking questions, but I hardly even looked at him, I was still just soaking in the city. I remember that I told him about how I'd wanted to climb up all the rope ladders to get to the very top of the sails. You know, like a pirate. Only I didn't say that. (And what's my problem, I'm scared of heights.) I think it made him laugh. He told me I wouldn't have made it up. Someone would stopped me, even if I had done my best to look like I knew what I was doing.

It was probably about 8:50. Still 40 minutes til the fireworks. "So are we allowed to watch the fireworks from the ship?" Well, oops, how was I supposed to know that the ship closed to the public at 9:00. And he told me that. Crew member man: "I didn't even know there were fireworks, and we're closed soon, but you might be able to stay on depending on who you ask." I felt bad. "It's ok, I have a great view from a bench on the pier! I'll just go back there, I didn't know we weren't supposed to be on the boat anymore." But I'd already asked the question and his wheels were turning in his mind to help me solve my 'problem.' "We might be able to get you to help us clean the boat and we'll let you stay on. I'll go ask." 

I think I just stood there stunned. I hadn't meant to ask to do something I wasn't supposed to do. I just thought it would be cool for my parents and I to watch fireworks from a really pretty ship. And hey, it was their anniversary, I had to do what I could. 

He came back with another crew member. "Hey, Megan," (heart stopped for a second how he knew my name, then realized I had told crew member #1 what it was), "I heard there was an issue and you're wondering if you can help us scrub our deck if we'll let you stay on to watch the fireworks." I probably really rolled my eyes this time. It had not ever been my idea to clean the boat. I was imagining myself on hands and knees with a bucket and a tiny little brush, scrubbing the thing all night long. But I just had to go with it. I heard myself saying, "Yeah, I'll help, I thought it'd be really cool for my parents and I to watch from here since it's such a pretty view. And after all, it is their 33rd anniversary." (Who could say No to someone's anniversary, right??). 

We talked a bit more. I think he asked if I could get my parents to bring beer. Um, nope. Not drinkin' with sailors. Not today. But he agreed. He had me call Dad. "Dad, I might be able to get us to watch the fireworks from here, even though it's closed. The only catch is I have to help them clean the boat." Of course my parents got a kick out of that. They marched on down the pier to join us, cameras out, all smiles, ready to meet the crew. 

Meanwhile, the first crew guy that talked to me handed me a brush (on a long handle like a broom) and told me to go behind the crew members that were spraying it down with water and sprinkling it with salt. He gave me a lesson on why they do that. I've forgotten. Then he laughed and apologized for making me clean the ship. After all, it hadn't been my idea at all. Oh well, I was going to do it and I was going to do it right. 

I scrubbed that salt/water combo right into the boards of the ship. I told the crew member I was near that if I was doing it wrong, he had to tell me without worrying about offending me. He told me I was doing it right. Well, cool. I felt like a part of the crew. The last of the touristy people had gone, my parents were relaxed down at the end of the boat, and I was scrubbing away. It was fun. It's like they accepted me as one of their own, even though I only helped them for fifteen minutes. 

They were all so kind. The fireworks were fireworks, nothing spectacular. But, I don't know, sitting on a sailboat rather than in the middle of a crowd, with the crew nearby enjoying it with us, it was just really cool. I remember sitting there thinking about how this kind of thing never happens. The first crew guy even told me that any other ship's crew would have said no to what I had asked them. And there had been hundreds of people touring those ships all day long, just part of a long line....blurred faces to the crew. But nope, we got to know the crew and sit there with the fireworks lighting up the sky. And it felt even cooler that I had earned it by scrubbing the deck. Another thing I know I'll never do again (I mean, honestly, ships aren't really my thing. I'll never do something like that again simply because I won't go seeking out that kind of opportunity).

It was one of those quiet moments that just doesn't seem real. And it was just really special. I know my parents miss me like crazy when I'm not there (and I left them all summer long). So just enjoying that with them was wonderful. The sailors were all so kind and even in that one hour of me being on that boat, we became friends. Friends that will never see each other again, of course, but in those few moments of getting to know each other, we really took it seriously and had a good time. 

Who would have thought that me going off to have a few minutes away from my parents could lead to such a fun event (and anniversary gift to my parents!) and an opportunity to meet some really cool people that are living a much different life than I am.  What a cool night in the city.

Chicago, I miss you already. 

July 30, 2013

This has been a rough summer for our Covenant community. After the loss of one of our professor's sons, we have now lost one of our own. David Taaffe died over a week ago now, but the pain is still really fresh as we have lost a part of our body. 

From our President, an email no one wants to ever send:

Dear Covenant Scots,
 
No doubt many of you have heard already via personal contact or social media, but it is with deep sadness that I write to inform you that we have recently learned that rising junior David Taaffe died on Monday as a result of injuries sustained due to a fall while hiking in Switzerland. We have limited information at this point, but wanted to let you know so you can be praying for the Taaffe family in this incredibly difficult time. As children of God and joint heirs with Christ we cling to the promise of the hope of glory, and we take great comfort in knowing that our brother, David, is with his Lord and Savior already. This is a wonderful truth to ponder even as we grieve an extremely painful loss.
 
David was a Maclellan Scholar from Nashville and was majoring in Spanish. He played on the soccer team and was set to return to 2nd Central to serve as the RA there for a second year. For those of you who didn't know him, you likely would have recognized his warm smile, bright eyes, sonorous voice, distinctive afro ("Taaff-ro"), gentle and courteous manner, or intensity on the soccer field. He was a wonderful guy, and we--along with many others--will miss him deeply.

For those of you on campus this summer, or in the area, we will have a time tomorrow, Thursday, July 25 at 11:00 a.m. in Sanderson 215 to pray together for the Taaffe family and to remind one another of God's promises to his people. We will also plan on having a time to remember David and celebrate his home-going once everyone has returned to campus for the fall term.
 
We trust that our God will use even this for His glory.
 
Yours in Christ,
 
JDH
 
J. Derek Halvorson, Ph.D.
President
Covenant College
 
In omnibus Christus primatum tenens

It's hard enough thinking about our Covenant College family having to deal with this, so I can't imagine how his family is. However, we can all look forward to the day when Christ will call us home. In the meantime we can live to serve Christ in all that we do, just as David did. 



Oh love that will not let me go, I rest my weary soul in thee.

June 30, 2013

My parents love geocaching. Don't know what it is? Go to www.geocaching.com.
Honestly, it's never been my thing. But what do you know....today in the park Emily spotted one in this lovely tree. So I signed the log book that we had found it!
So here ya go, Mom and Dad. Be proud.

June 17, 2013

I know I just wrote a blog about how big and adorable my nephew is getting.

And, I'm sorry (actually, I don't think I am), but turns out I'm just really proud of being an aunt and what do you know, Finley is also getting huge. And oh my goodness, so beautiful.

Her big round eyes are killing me.

And that goofy expression on her face.

Ok so I just love my niece and nephew and I these won't be the last blogs and pictures I post about them.

June 7, 2013

Last week on May 30, 12-year-old Daniel, son of my professor Dr. Eames, passed away.

I have a really hard time dealing with the death of children. In my mind, everyone grows old and someday will die in a nursing home. Or maybe they'll die at a little bit younger age (say, their 50s) of some sickness. Or they'll die in an accident in their 30s. But even those who die at those ages seem too young to die.

But then when children die. I just don't get it. In The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, King Theoden says at the grave of his son, "No parent should have to bury their child." And I agree. Nothing could be as heartbreaking.

I know that parents love their children so much (a lot more than kids love their parents). More than their own life. I remember one argument I had with my mom (the kind of argument that had me in my room, door slammed shut and shouting about how much I hated my parents), and my mom said to me later, though she was still upset, "Megan, I love you so much. And there is absolutely nothing you can do to ever change it." (I think I rolled my eyes). And another time I had to say goodbye to my whole family, and I hugged them one at a time. I knew I would see my parents again in about a month, so I wasn't that sad about that particular goodbye. But I got to my mom and she whispered in my ear, "I love you more than life itself," and she started crying because she didn't want me to leave. Or when my parents tell me on the phone how much they miss me, but they're even more happy that I am where I need to be at Covenant rather than in DeMotte.

Yikes. My love for my parents is displayed in my calling them and saying, "Hey, what's up, can you mail me a package?" or me writing them a letter with a picture I drew of a dinosaur stampeding its way through a village. Or me responding to them on the phone after they tell me how much they miss me with something like, "Hey, it's only been three months, I'll see you in another two months, it's no big deal." Don't get me wrong, I really love them. But I know that it's nothing compared to how much they love me. (When I do tell my mom I love her, she says to me, "I love you bigger," and I respond with something like, "Cool, talk to you later." It's because I do know that she loves me bigger.)

And so that's why it is hard for me to understand the death of children. Because parents love their kids so much more than their own lives. When children bury their parents, it's incredibly sad. Moving on is so hard without the people that raised them and loved them. I don't know how I'll handle it someday when my parents pass away.

But when kids die, and their parents are closing the casket and watching them be lowered into the ground, the parents want nothing more than to be the one that died instead. And honestly, I don't know what else to write about that, as I have never felt those emotions (or even loved someone as much as any parent has ever loved their kid). So I can't even begin to imagine it.

Being at the funeral on Sunday was so hard because I couldn't stop thinking about how hard it must be for them to lose their child. The baby of the family. Their only son. One of the few people in the world that they loved more than they loved their own life. Watching Dr. Eames lean down one last time to kiss Daniel on the forehead before the casket was closed is something I will not forget in a long time.

No parent should have to bury their child.

..............

I left for work today a few minutes early, so I decided to go check my mail before going up to the desk. Dr. and Mrs. Eames were the only two people I ran into, and suddenly I wanted to disappear. I felt so inadequate. I wanted my dad with me, because as a minister he's had tons of practice comforting people. It was just me by myself, so unaccustomed to this kind of grief, so unaccustomed to how much it is possible for  parents to love their children.

I didn't know what to say other than, "How are you?" I couldn't believe they were both smiling. And I couldn't believe that the answer to that question was "As best as we can be," rather than "Terrible, how can we deal with this grief?" Dr. Eames shook my hand (twice) and thanked me from the bottom of his heart for being at the funeral. He proceeded to introduce me to his wife and even tell her that I was going to be working for him in the Psych department next year. They were so kind. And so loving. Two incredible people that I was so blessed to talk with, even though I felt uncomfortable at first. But throughout our conversation Dr. and Mrs. Eames kept reminding me of how awesome God is.

I told them how amazing the funeral service had been. Because it really had been. I thought I would be leaving that funeral sobbing and driving with tears running down my face. But I left smiling. And happy. Because God is so good. And that funeral really reminded me of that. The pastor read Psalm 116:15 to us. "Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints." God called Daniel to be home with Him. He has not called Dr. Eames, or his wife, or their daughters to be with Him yet. But God had worked through Daniel for 12 years and it was His will for Daniel to pass away. And now he is with Jesus. The whole service was a reminder to me of how we belong to God. He is the Potter, we are the clay. Our lives are to be lived to serve and glorify Him. And it is only by His grace and His mercy that we are saved. And nothing can separate us from Him. God is so good.

I cannot even begin to imagine how the Eames family feels right now. They have an empty spot at their dinner table. A bedroom in their house is now empty and silent. There is a gaping hole in their hearts that will never heal.

But they know that Daniel is in heaven with our Lord. They know that someday they will be too.

What a blessing for the Eames family to have had Daniel in their lives for twelve wonderful years. They have so many hilarious memories and funny stories that they will remember for a long time. And they will never stop grieving.

Dr. Eames told me today that grief can be hard because it is so isolating. But I don't think it should be. Grief should draw Christians closer together. I hope that God uses all of this to bring His people closer together.

And someday, when my time comes, I cannot wait to meet my Savior face to face. I am His, and He is mine. I hope to glorify Him in everything that I do here on earth and to glorify Him even in my death. And, like Daniel is now, I will be with Him for eternity.

May 29, 2013




Oops. Sometimes I forget that my favorite people in the world keep aging while I'm away from them. I thought Levi was still just a little baby. But now this 5-month-old is sitting up all by himself!! What?!

Stop growing so fast when I'm not there!!

May 28, 2013

I kinda felt like a superhero today. Camper after camper came to our desk saying their key didn't work. Oh, Carter doors....you confuse people.
Well the keys do work. Just not in the hands of 14-year-old girls on their cell phones who are used to everything working perfectly.
I politely asked for the key, stuck it in the lock, turned it, and click! it opened every time.
They didn't think I would be able to open it, but I did. Made me feel kinda like a superhero.
I didn't like having six or seven of them hovering behind my back in anticipation because it made me nervous and I was really afraid of being inadequate at opening some of those doors. But it was ok because I did get them.
Some of those doors really are tricky. But something about the thought of being the only one that can possibly solve the problem really is motivating in figuring it out, no matter what that means.
So you are welcome Carter campers. Glad I could help.

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